Slowing Down the Pace

I must have figured that life is unworthy to be blogged unless there is some significant event occuring because I have just been failing to blog. I could say I was caught up with school work but that is a lie. Not that I am failing to do my school work, its just easy. Some things in life however are not that easy to deal with.

Im in a confused state. I say that now as an explanation as to why some of this might not make sense. You see, a rash of heart effecting events have taken place and I have somehow misplaced my sanity. Not that I am going crazy, just that I am not reacting in the proper ways. For instance, I have recently been the victim of theft, approximately $350 worth. I really don't care if the wrongdoer gets in trouble, as long as I have my items returned to me. I do not see any problems with this decision. Those around me however have managed to become more upset about the situation than I have, which makes me question whether or not I am a pushover. I don't think I am letting this guy get off the hook because he will somehow have to return to me the items or the monetary value of them. I have been told, however, that the police should have been involved immediately and he should be charged. I just want my stuff back, plain and simple. Maybe I just have to good a heart, if that is possible.

A great friend once said that holding on to anger is like burning down your house to kill a rat. In explanation, anger only destroys and effects you.

I had a choice.

I could have been angry with this guy (which I was in the moment but I dealt with the emotion and let it go) or I could take the neccesary steps to have my things returned and then keep living life. The things I lost are not going to kill me. I will live without them. It is a disappointment to see the things I worked hard to by gone just like that, but I can always buy them again.

I guess this was more of a ranting of my questions and feelings, but hopefully it got across the message that things like this just arent worth holding on to. I have to consider my questions about who I am. Good night.